So what did you get in your test?
Sorry. I’ve been getting that a lot lately.
That’s right, it’s exam season. Cue the screaming and hair-pulling. Next week I, along with my fellow classmates, will be entering into an exam hall for our first real exam.
I mean, we’ve had various mocks this year, and in previous years, but this is the first time that something we do will actually impact our lives.
Which is a little scary. Okay, a lot scary.
At this moment I honestly don’t know how I’m going to feel walking into that room, knowing that when I come out I will have either helped to secure my future, or contributed to its destruction.
But I think I might be a little too dramatic. If I go into that room on Tuesday panicking, I definitely won’t be doing myself a favour.
But then telling people not to panic isn’t one of the best ways to stop people panicking. In fact, I find it seriously annoying. Even if I spend every waking minute between now and the exam revising and revising, that won’t help me feel better.
I will feel better because when I sit down at that desk, I’m going to stay as calm as possible, and trust my instincts. If I spend the whole time freaking out because there’s one thing on the test that I’ve never seen before, I’m not going to do anything else.
I find skipping things and going back to them helpful, because by the time I’ve finished and come back, my brain is in a better mindset and I can concentrate better on what I’m doing without freaking out.
And even though this exam on Tuesday is going to be the first of many, it’s actually the one I’m looking forward to the most. Because it’s English, it’s writing, it’s the thing that I love to do. Even if English isn’t your favourite subject, there’s something that you are passionate about. Maybe you don’t have an exam in that subject, but that subject can be the thing that motivates you, and the thing that you know will be waiting for you after this horrible mess is over.
And the grade that you get on a piece of paper doesn’t have to spell out your life.
P.S. Why, what four-letter word did you think I was going to say? 😉